#24: If You Want to Know Who I Really Am

A few days ago, I read an article from Thought Catolog, titled “50 Questions to ask a girl if you want to know who she really is”. Hmm, I’m not sure if anyone out there wants to know who I really am, but well, if not, I might as well just answer these 50 questions to have a better understanding of myself! So let’s get right into these Q&A session!

1) What’s one thing that’s happened to you that has made you a stronger person?

I can’t be too specific on this because, I just can’t tell the whole world about this as it’s too personal, but it’s because someone who is not meant for me had left, I guess we will be stronger only if we have experienced hurt before. So in short, yes, I’ve experienced that hurt by someone whom I loved very deeply before, and at the end of the day I’m truly thankful for everything that happened and those who had left because I believe that I’ve become a stronger person through all these painful experiences.

2) What’s one thing that’s happened to you in your life that made you feel weak?

When the person I care the most, left.

3) Where is one place you feel most like yourself?

My home, the best place for me to be myself, without hiding who I really am.

4) Where is your favorite place to escape to?

It depends on the reason I’m escaping! If I felt disturbed inside, I might choose to go to Church.  If not, then maybe it’s my home, or even beach. It really needs to depend on the situation.

5) Who do you think has had the largest influence on the person you are today?

My Add maths teacher for sure! I don’t think I will be able to realize how important it is to love ourselves first before we can love others better. Back to my high school days, I was a girl who care way too much for other people’s feelings and put myself last, and I was so stressed out because of results, I couldn’t bear the way how people treated me like a “God” because every time when my result drops by one mark, everyone will be like “what happened to me?” that kind of pressure. She made me realized that, yes, being on the top will make me so damn lonely at times, but I shall take it easy, and not let this affect the way I view myself.

6) If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

Maybe I would like to remove the eye bags and dark circle! Haha!

7) If you had one day left to live, what would you do first?

I will go to Church with my family and pray for the one last time. 

8) What decade do you feel you most belong in?

Maybe it’s the old people decade. Hahaha!

9) Who are you closest to in your family? Why?

I guess it will be a little bit hurtful if I answer this question by simply saying anyone from my family members. Erm, I’m very close to my parents and also siblings. Why? Because they love and care for me a lot, and they show it with actions. 

10) Who is the one person in this world that knows you best?

Add Maths teacher! Haha!

11) What is your favorite quality about your best friend?

Being honest, and sincere.

12) When you were younger what did you think you were going to be when you grew up?

When I was younger, I seriously thought that I will become an artiste when I grew up, either a singer or actress, hahaha!

13) If you could identify with one fictional character (from a book, show, or movie) who would it be?

Elsa from Frozen? Haha!

14) Do you easily accept compliments? Or do you hate compliments?

Well, I don’t hate compliments, I will just say ‘thank you’ whenever someone compliments me, but I will only accept those which are sincere.

15) Is your favorite attribute about yourself physical or non-physical?

Non-Physical!

16) What is your favorite physical attribute about yourself?

Err, lips maybe.

17) What is your favorite non-physical attribute about yourself?

Personality. 

18) Do you believe in love at first sight?

Not really!

19) Do you believe in soul mates?

Yes, I do.

20) How seriously do you take horoscopes?

Ok, I did watch some videos that talk about horoscopes, and maybe some passage, but I won’t believe in it 100%. I just pick the point that seems quite true, and ignore those which I think isn’t true. 

21) Have you ever been in love? How many times?

Once maybe.

22) What makes you fall in love with someone?

Their personality. Whether it’s because they are humorous, or they are caring, or they are hardworking, I don’t really mind how they look like, what I care is really all about their attitudes and behaviors, and how they treat people in life. I don’t really set much standards, maybe it’s all about having indescribable feelings towards that special someone? I don’t know. But personality, matters a lot for me.

23) What does vulnerability mean to you? What has the ability to make you vulnerable?

Feeling dead and meaningless even when you’re alive. The ability to make me vulnerable? It’s so dangerous to reveal the answer here! OMG! Haha, but, erm, yeah, maybe you can choose to treat me as if I’m everything that you got, and leave without a word when I’ve completely trusted you.

24) What’s one thing you’re scared to ask a man, but really want to?

Have you ever regretted knowing me?

25) If you were a man for a day, what would be the first thing you do?

Maybe I will go and shop for male’s attire. And wear it. And see how many girls I manage to tackle!

26) What do you find most attractive about each sex?

For male, maybe it’s when they laughed genuinely, and I find that very attractive and cute. And also when you see them trying to protect something or someone that they are passionate about. Humorous and passionate about life, these two qualities for males make me feel that they are super attractive.

For female, maybe it’s when they are being sensitive to other people’s feelings, they care for other’s emotions, and they are not self-centered. And girls that have their own life, makes me feel they are very attractive. For example, they won’t wait for someone’s message for the whole day, and they won’t overthink just because that person did not reply. They have a life!

27) What’s one thing you’d love to learn more about?

Human behavior, personality, and how to deal with different types of people.

28) What is something you’ve never done that you’ve always wanted to do?

Travel all around the world

29) Why haven’t you done it yet?

Now might not be the right timing, and secondly is, I still haven’t save enough to do this. But I will work hard, and I will do it someday!

30) If money didn’t matter, what would your dream job be?

Maybe I will play with kids. Hahaha!

31) If you had off from work today, what would you do?

Go home if there’s no appointment with friends.

32) What was the last thing that made you cry?

That session during the camp, few days ago. Haha! 

33) What was the last thing that made you laugh?

Erm, I disturb my dad non-stop until he said I kiampa! HAHAHA!

34) What is your favorite memory?

Being the monitor of 5A1 and every moment spent with them, no matter it’s in the classroom, or during gathering, would be one of my favorite memories that I might never forget.

35) What’s the last thing that REALLY embarrassed you?

Wanted to reply my dad’s message but sent it to my boss!!! (You know who you are, hahaha!)

36) What is your biggest fear?

Fear of being abandoned by the loved ones.

37) Do you have any regrets? What’s your biggest one?

For now, I don’t think I have any regrets because I always believe that no matter what happened, it always happens for a good reason, and at the end of the day, you will see it as a great chance of learning, of becoming a better person. Nothing bad!

38) Have you ever broken a law? If you haven’t what is one law you’d love to break?

Broken law takda la, broken rules got la! Erm, not really interested in breaking laws though.

39) What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?

Taking 6 subjects in one semester, for twice. Gila betul, so memorable I can’t forget the experience. Stress like hell!

40) Would you have a conversation with a stranger?

Yes! If they need listeners, I will definitely do this.

41) Would you tell a stranger they have toilet paper hanging from their shoe? Or their dress tucked into their underwear? (Or anything else that is embarrassing to be seen in public)?

I WILL!

42) What’s your favourite joke?

No idea man! Anything funny la ok. It’s very easy to make me laugh. (If you’re not someone I dislike, haha!)

43) Are you a dog person or a cat person?

Neither a dog person nor a cat person, but if I were to choose one, dogs then!

44) If you could be any animal, what animal would you be?

Horse!

45) What’s one show, movie, or book, you’re embarrassed to admit you enjoy?

Don’t have I think.

46) How do you think your parents would describe you as a child?

Cute.

47) If you could go back to any age or time of your life, what age or time would it be?

I enjoy my current life so much that I seldom think of going back to the past. I just want to live in the present.

48) What’s something you believe in that not everyone else does?

I don’t think there’s one thing that everyone believes in? But I believe in God.

49) What’s one thing you would say that makes you unique from other people?

Personality. You may say that we have the same personality, but I bet there will be some differences. Because everyone is unique in their own ways.

50) What is one thing you feel your life is missing?

Nope, I feel contented with my life.